Thursday, March 29, 2012

I have a Secret

I have a secret that is sweet. Not all secrets are sweet but this one is so sweet and it makes me smile and makes me happy and makes me praise the name of God always.

I know what I want to do tomorrow. I know what I want to end my life doing. I know what brings me joy and satisfaction and again I will tow that road because while I was on that journey, I got interrupted, so return I must.

On an entirely different thing, man, am I glad it rained really heavily today or what? I enjoyed every moment of it. Only regret of course is that instead of being under my blanket at home, I am at my desk at work feeling sleepy and wishy. It is well sha.

As the month of March rows (or roll. can't bother to figure which fits) out, I can say thank you God. You didn't disappoint on the deadline and You so weren't late. So thanks for coming through yet again.

And, I seriously want to publish at least one book this year o. Even though I know I want to do this, I also know I can't push myself enough down that road. Seriously need some motivation and help. Lazy me.

Monday, March 12, 2012

When those times come

There are those times when all we believe seem not to be working for us or the way we expect.

I have read the same scriptures many times over and understand them inside out. I can preach with them because I believe them so much and can not even begin to count the number of times God has come through for me.

I have always been this person who never let circumstances bother me. At all!. I grew up in circumstances that would make a best seller. Although from an early age, I wasn't close to God, but I knew He was particularly interested in me, so that knowledge, wherever it came from, made me strong. That knowledge gave me hope, it made me believe in tomorrow. And I grew up and I found Him and we established a relationship and I was redeemed from the curse of the law.

Never once has He failed me. He has always been an 'On Time God'. Never late. So knowing all the testimonies I have over the years, I grew a thick skin against circumstances and never allow worry to visit me.

But those times come, once in a while, when I think, I fear, I tremble, and I allow the devil to almost steal the word that I believe in.

He has told me, 'fear not, for I am with you'. But those times do come. And recently, they have been visiting much more than I want.

But before I fall totally, before I allow fear to grip me and envelop me all over due to some circumstances that is such a small deal for the God I serve to handle - before I fall into that trap that sends my faith into captivity, I remember again, that He has never failed and He cannot change His name today to a God that changes.

So this is just for the record satan, I have spoken His words to myself. I have put Him in remembrance of what He said He will do. Now I am telling you for the record that it's over and done with and I am at peace. You can bring your 'times' whenever you won't, but I will never be captive to fear. Never!

Monday, March 05, 2012

I Am So Ashamed!!!!!

Yes, I am really ashamed of myself. Not blogging or making blog rounds. What excuse do I have? None, cos I'm almost always online. I keep saying I will and I will but I never.

Partly to blame of course is my head always on the road looking for something, thinking of something to do. You know, we all got to survive and that is exactly what I have been doing. Projects dreamed up that somehow, I am too lazy or too uninspired to carry out are also killing me as I try somehow to wake them up from the dead.

But I'm sure the blogville community is fine and growing without me. Even though many of the oldies have stopped blogging, there are lots of newbies I'm dying to read and get to know. So this time, when I say I am back for real, I am indeed back for real.

Happy Married Life Doll! Do have a blast with the license to ......